Friday Morning in O.C.

Hello all,

Just sitting here at my old Starbucks in Costa Mesa enjoying a morning off and meditating on the Lord as my car gets repaired... Don't get me wrong, this is not my "old Starbucks" because I am a coffee fanatic (though I do like coffee); no, rather, it is my "old Starbucks" because I used to work here about 2 years ago. Besides a change in the staff, things haven't changed much! I see the same customers!

As I was reading Spurgeon's morning devotion, which spoke of God's unending abilities to strengthen and carry us, it dawned on me just how weak and feeble humans are. Think about it-- God created the universe, keeps the planets aligned, the stars in place, the world spinning; He keeps the oceans from swallowing up the land, the people from flying off into outer space... He feeds the animals, created cosmic laws and governs the universe without any problem... And yet, we sit here and think that He might have a problem helping us! How absurd!

And yet, we think that! We feel that, rather. We feel He is likely to forget us, to abandon us, to be unable to solve what "huge" problems we find ourselves in... We cry out to the Lord thinking that we need to beg and plead and whine for Him to take pity on us and help us... And that if He does choose to help, that His help may be insufficient.

This isn't a lesson on how we should not be so silly, because I don't think any amount of lessons could fix that. It is just that I have caught a glimpse of how silly and weak humans are. We are like little babies who can't yet control their limbs and shake them as we cry, yet we think that we are giant, strong warriors who can wield a sword and conquer the toughest foes. How goofy we are! What inflated opinions we have of ourselves!

But God has mercy, and loves us, even as we love our earthly children who hand us a piece of scribble art with the impression in their minds that it is a Van Gogh masterpiece worth millions. How grateful I am that He has such kind tender affections toward us silly, feeble, weak creatures. And that He Himself became one of us, suffering all the same emotions and feelings of helplessness that we are so prone to-- yet He knew the truth of God's strength and help and love toward us. And that He came to teach to us, that we might obtain the gift of that very same thing which He freely offers to us.

Praise God!
He is awesome.
Merry Christmas everyone! :)

What Can I Say...?

What can I say...? Not much is going on that's really worth writing about. I feel I must wait for some momentous occasion to make an entry here...

But life is very unworthy of a front page headline right now!

It's been "wake up, drive to work, work, drive home, eat, sleep, repeat" almost every day. I've been blessed to get to enjoy the fellowship and company of a family that attends my church. This past Sunday I went over there with Tom. Tom was going to jam with their son Perris and his friends, and I was going to learn how to feed the animals as I am house-sitting for them while they are away. It was a rad time! I got to learn how our church began, about their lives, and Tom and I got to share a few songs with them. And, we got to sit in a nice living room with a toasty warm fire! It's so chilly in my apartment! I think it's 54 degrees in my bedroom right now... I dread turning on the heater as I think it costs 10 cents a minute! Old heater...

It's a hard thing for work to absorb your life after a year and a half plus of having more than plenty of time for life in between work. It takes some getting used to I guess. I'm not too fond of it, actually... I wish it could change. If I could transfer to a different branch here in Carlsbad (vs. Escondido where I presently work) I would have banker's hours-- which would be awesome! And to boot I wouldn't have to drive 40 miles a day for work.

But God is good, and He so faithful to comfort me in all my afflictions (if they could be called "afflictions" hehe). I am glad that He's enabled me to be a witness at work too. I love to share the Lord with my coworkers, but I am so afraid of mentioning anything having to do with God at work! I tense up after every transaction because I want to say "Merry Christmas", but don't know if I should or shouldn't. So then I look insensitive and unloving because I don't wish them some sort of holiday blessing! Argh... Satan hits you on both sides! It's just not fair!

I may have an opportunity to move into a back-house at the home of this family at church (the Rowens). It would be so rad to live there! I think it would be rad fellowship, plus, I would get to go to a midweek Bible study at last (they have one at their home, but I can't go as I get off work too late... But if I lived there, I could probably just pop in when I got home without feeling too weird).

I can't believe it's almost Christmas... And 2007.

One year closer to Jesus! Yay!
Praise the Lord!

Well everyone, whoever you are who will read this...

Merry Christmas!
Jesus loves you!
Many blessings.